Tomorrow, I can chew. Tomorrow, I can chew. Tomorrow, I can chew.
Juice fast is awesome! I do miss chewing though?! Is that stupid or what? What is it that I get to chew? Well, breakfast will be almond milk and Syntha 6 protein powder, lunch will be organic iceberg lettuce with Walden Farms Ranch dressing, a boiled egg, pineapple, red onion and shaved carrots. I have decided I didn't work this hard to start putting total crap back in my body.
Last fall, I did a 10 day 'fruits, veggies, raw almonds, herbal tea' self-challenge. It was just something I had on my 30x30 list to see if I could do it. I did it, I rocked that shit out. Then you know what I did the next day?! I ate pizza, cheetos, and some other total crap! I have had to do a lot of talking to myself about how this is for health overall and it's not the cry baby 'deprivation' that dieters talk about. This is me getting stronger, healthier, adding years to my life to spend with my friends and family!
I fought hard with boredom and mild depression eating this weekend. I had no choice, because I wasn't going to give up on my 10 day commitment. Knowing James is gone and really cold, crappy weather had me stuck inside most of the time. I re-arranged my home office and living room. When bored and unable to eat, move heavy shit around in your house. You'll appreciate the distraction and the re-styled look!! :)
Some of my fave juices:
carrot, cucumber, green apple
green apple, kale, celery, cucumber (my green machine!)
carrot and apple! Yum!!
celery, carrot, pear
pear, strawberry, celery
**I add either celery, carrot, or cucumber to almost every juice because it gets the most juice out. I add kale to every single juice, I put spinach in but it doesn't get that much juice. Kale gets a decent amount, especially when you put a cucumber or celery in afterwards to finish juicing it and get all the green goodness out of the machine. I add 1 small meyer lemon to almost every juice (not the sweeter ones like carrot & pear).
I'll be eating a lot of carrots! I found 2 pound bags of organic carrots on sale for $1.39 this weekend. I bought 3 bags. 6 pounds of carrots is a lot, but they do have a longer fridge life than most veggies. I can juice and freeze the juice if I need to. I couldn't pass that deal up though!
The pounds lost......... stay tuned because I'm gonna rock your world tomorrow with my weigh-in!! :)
Monday, March 5, 2012
Saturday, March 3, 2012
100 Mile Trip for Groceries soon......
It's 9:30am on Saturday. Soon, I will be off for my 50 mile drive for grocery goodness. I am running out of stuff for my juicer and my juice fast isn't over for 3 more days (Sat-Sun-Mon). I've been reading on how to come off a juice fast. Lots of ideas, not too many rules, but I do have to take it easy. I think I want to keep having at least 1 juice per day. It's just wonderful!
I knew this day would come and we both dreaded it.... but the building that James was working on in our town is done. He now lives back in his town full time. He has practically lived with me since mid-November, while here building part of the school. Now, the job is done and he is gone. We have talked about it a lot, we are both committed to making this work. He is so wonderful. He has re-intoduced me to communication, honesty, respect.... all the things I had missed out on for so long while dating total jerks. They weren't all like that, but the majority of them were....... He now lives 2.5 hours away. I'm still relatively new to this town, so I think I'm going to be lonely a lot of evenings during this transition. This sucks, but we have a great relationship.... so we'll be fine.
We still have discussions about the gambling. He and his friends go to the casino's poker tournament every weekend. The casino sends a driver (sometimes a Hummer limo) for them, they're THOSE guys. The 'high rollers'... whatever. He knows it is the one thing that bugs me and he has made improvement. He thought I drank too much, and I haven't had a drop of alcohol in two months. He had made major changes in the gambling. I've been a total bitch to him about how it is one thing that scares me, it is a completely destructive addiction. I give him the same allowances that I always give myself... Progress, not Perfection. He's back in the same town now with the same friends who gamble like crazy. If there's an end to us, it will be the gambling. I've told him that. I will stand by it too. I watched gambling destroy my life when I was a kid. I still see my Mom struggle with it. I won't be a part of it again. Nope.
I have no energy or interest in going on this long trip for groceries. It's ridiculous, I can't wait unti summer when the farmers are selling their melons and veggies on the side of the road out of the back of their pickup trucks.
Well, the road is calling...... off to get some green, organic goodness from the grocery store miles and miles away. Have a lovely Saturday.
Go check out Mir's vLog, she is talking about walking. Simple, yet wonderful. I'll be going for a nice walk this evening when I get back!
I knew this day would come and we both dreaded it.... but the building that James was working on in our town is done. He now lives back in his town full time. He has practically lived with me since mid-November, while here building part of the school. Now, the job is done and he is gone. We have talked about it a lot, we are both committed to making this work. He is so wonderful. He has re-intoduced me to communication, honesty, respect.... all the things I had missed out on for so long while dating total jerks. They weren't all like that, but the majority of them were....... He now lives 2.5 hours away. I'm still relatively new to this town, so I think I'm going to be lonely a lot of evenings during this transition. This sucks, but we have a great relationship.... so we'll be fine.
We still have discussions about the gambling. He and his friends go to the casino's poker tournament every weekend. The casino sends a driver (sometimes a Hummer limo) for them, they're THOSE guys. The 'high rollers'... whatever. He knows it is the one thing that bugs me and he has made improvement. He thought I drank too much, and I haven't had a drop of alcohol in two months. He had made major changes in the gambling. I've been a total bitch to him about how it is one thing that scares me, it is a completely destructive addiction. I give him the same allowances that I always give myself... Progress, not Perfection. He's back in the same town now with the same friends who gamble like crazy. If there's an end to us, it will be the gambling. I've told him that. I will stand by it too. I watched gambling destroy my life when I was a kid. I still see my Mom struggle with it. I won't be a part of it again. Nope.
I have no energy or interest in going on this long trip for groceries. It's ridiculous, I can't wait unti summer when the farmers are selling their melons and veggies on the side of the road out of the back of their pickup trucks.
Well, the road is calling...... off to get some green, organic goodness from the grocery store miles and miles away. Have a lovely Saturday.
Go check out Mir's vLog, she is talking about walking. Simple, yet wonderful. I'll be going for a nice walk this evening when I get back!
Friday, March 2, 2012
Juice Fast is now going by very slowwwwwwwww
I started a juice fast last Saturday, February 25th. Nothing but fresh made juice in my awesome juicer and almond milk. I haven't had any protein supplements/shakes. This is just for 10 days, not for life. I am going for a detox effect vs. weight loss. I have had some criticisms, I thank you for taking the time to email me. I have visited with my Dr. about this. I feel very energetic and kinda fabulous, actually!
Today was a rough one because there was food everywhere at the office. The office is the worst place to be, there are some major eaters here. Today they had Manwich sandwiches, fresh made salsa and guacamole and some baked beans. Yum, yum, and double yum. But, I had some green goodness and a fresh apple juice for a 'treat'. I bought an electric tea kettle for my office and have a big bowl of various tea bags, I drink a lot of hot herbal tea. The 'no coffee' part of this was the worst, especially considering I started on a weekend. Saturday and Sunday mornings at my house mean fresh ground coffee beans from about 7-11am. I drink LOTS of coffee. I was almost climbing the walls without it and had a terrible headache. It passed. I'm still alive.
Come next Tuesday, March 6... I can 'chew' again. I have had lots and lots of sugarfree gum. That wasn't originally part of the plan, but I added it after figuring out that this totally sucks. If I had this to do over again, I absolutely would! I feel great. I have energy. I'm happy. I'm learning that I CAN DO ANYTHING. Turns out maybe I don't 'need' pasta or cupcakes or lemon cheesecake. It really does nothing for me, I keep learning and I keep becoming stronger.
Today was a rough one because there was food everywhere at the office. The office is the worst place to be, there are some major eaters here. Today they had Manwich sandwiches, fresh made salsa and guacamole and some baked beans. Yum, yum, and double yum. But, I had some green goodness and a fresh apple juice for a 'treat'. I bought an electric tea kettle for my office and have a big bowl of various tea bags, I drink a lot of hot herbal tea. The 'no coffee' part of this was the worst, especially considering I started on a weekend. Saturday and Sunday mornings at my house mean fresh ground coffee beans from about 7-11am. I drink LOTS of coffee. I was almost climbing the walls without it and had a terrible headache. It passed. I'm still alive.
Come next Tuesday, March 6... I can 'chew' again. I have had lots and lots of sugarfree gum. That wasn't originally part of the plan, but I added it after figuring out that this totally sucks. If I had this to do over again, I absolutely would! I feel great. I have energy. I'm happy. I'm learning that I CAN DO ANYTHING. Turns out maybe I don't 'need' pasta or cupcakes or lemon cheesecake. It really does nothing for me, I keep learning and I keep becoming stronger.
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Upcoming Trips including a 5k
March 10-13 trip to North Dakota to see my sister! She has an ultrasound on 3/12, so maybe I will get to go and see miracle baby! :)
March 16-18 Reunion with college friends at our old stomping grounds! There have been a lot of changes to the campus and we are excited to go see it and attend a Native American Alumni Dinner. They've been talking a lot about drinking green beer that weekend. It doesn't appeal to me, is that bad or is that progress? I haven't drank alcohol since the end of December. The one exception was February 1, which was our date night with champagne. I'm a party girl at heart, but I wonder if the booze is really worth it? Worth the calories, bloat, and belly fat? Interesting to see how that weekend plays out!
*Last year, I skipped this Alumni dinner because I was too embarrassed for my old friends to see me. This year, I'll be showing up with bells on!
March 20-25 work conference in Albuquerque, New Mexico
****Miracle baby niece or nephew will be born sometime during this period. Due date is April 5!****
April 18-22 Las Vegas for my 30th birthday on 4/21
May 9 All Day Concert Event: Marilyn Manson with Buckcherry, Volbeat, Hellyeah, Clutch, The Pretty Reckless
May 24 Rob Zombie concert with Megadeth and Volbeat
May 25-29 Mini family reunion for Memorial Day
*A picture of myself from last year's Memorial Day reunion was the picture that made me cry. It was a huge turning point for me. I'll wrangle up the same people to sit on the very same park bench to take a pic this year. The difference will be like night and day!! :) PROGRESS!
June 1-3 High School Friends Reunion and Golf tournament
*Last year, I went and helped with the registration for the memorial golf tournament, but then left as soon as I possibly could. I skipped the other weekend events, again.... out of shame of what I looked like. Not this year!
June 10-15 Washington DC Work Conference
July 12-16 Washington State Trip (#7 on my 30x30). I'll also be doing the See Jane Run 5k that weekend in Seattle. http://www.seejanerun.com/t-See-Jane-Run-Half.aspx
*I hope to find 2-3 other 5k's to do before this one in July. See Jane Run looks like a lot of fun to me. The 'celebration expo' has chocolate tastings and champagne, what's not to love?! :)
July 26-29 Kansas for the Leadsled Spectacular Car Show! It's a fabulous car show and in one of my favorite locations - Salina, Kansas. I lived there a couple years and really enjoyed it, I have some great friends there.
I'm so happy these days, sometimes I do wonder when something 'bad' might happen. In the meantime, I just keep being me, stick to my goals and focus on my health. The rest seems to be falling into place. Funny what a positive attitude can do for a girl.
I am worried about the booze thing though. I'm not making it 'no booze in March' as a goal - but I also know it doesn't seem worth allowing it to wreak havoc on my progress. Progress has been solid since January for a number of reasons, cutting the alcohol was one of them. I guess I'll figure it out as I go.......
March 16-18 Reunion with college friends at our old stomping grounds! There have been a lot of changes to the campus and we are excited to go see it and attend a Native American Alumni Dinner. They've been talking a lot about drinking green beer that weekend. It doesn't appeal to me, is that bad or is that progress? I haven't drank alcohol since the end of December. The one exception was February 1, which was our date night with champagne. I'm a party girl at heart, but I wonder if the booze is really worth it? Worth the calories, bloat, and belly fat? Interesting to see how that weekend plays out!
*Last year, I skipped this Alumni dinner because I was too embarrassed for my old friends to see me. This year, I'll be showing up with bells on!
March 20-25 work conference in Albuquerque, New Mexico
****Miracle baby niece or nephew will be born sometime during this period. Due date is April 5!****
April 18-22 Las Vegas for my 30th birthday on 4/21
May 9 All Day Concert Event: Marilyn Manson with Buckcherry, Volbeat, Hellyeah, Clutch, The Pretty Reckless
May 24 Rob Zombie concert with Megadeth and Volbeat
May 25-29 Mini family reunion for Memorial Day
*A picture of myself from last year's Memorial Day reunion was the picture that made me cry. It was a huge turning point for me. I'll wrangle up the same people to sit on the very same park bench to take a pic this year. The difference will be like night and day!! :) PROGRESS!
June 1-3 High School Friends Reunion and Golf tournament
*Last year, I went and helped with the registration for the memorial golf tournament, but then left as soon as I possibly could. I skipped the other weekend events, again.... out of shame of what I looked like. Not this year!
June 10-15 Washington DC Work Conference
July 12-16 Washington State Trip (#7 on my 30x30). I'll also be doing the See Jane Run 5k that weekend in Seattle. http://www.seejanerun.com/t-See-Jane-Run-Half.aspx
*I hope to find 2-3 other 5k's to do before this one in July. See Jane Run looks like a lot of fun to me. The 'celebration expo' has chocolate tastings and champagne, what's not to love?! :)
July 26-29 Kansas for the Leadsled Spectacular Car Show! It's a fabulous car show and in one of my favorite locations - Salina, Kansas. I lived there a couple years and really enjoyed it, I have some great friends there.
I'm so happy these days, sometimes I do wonder when something 'bad' might happen. In the meantime, I just keep being me, stick to my goals and focus on my health. The rest seems to be falling into place. Funny what a positive attitude can do for a girl.
I am worried about the booze thing though. I'm not making it 'no booze in March' as a goal - but I also know it doesn't seem worth allowing it to wreak havoc on my progress. Progress has been solid since January for a number of reasons, cutting the alcohol was one of them. I guess I'll figure it out as I go.......
Workout Playlist
Tool - The Pot
This is one of my favorite songs of all time.
Korn (ft. Skrillex) - Narcissistic Cannibals
There is no way you can't get up and DO WORK when this song comes on.
Janus - Eyesore
I love Janus. They bring it. I love their style, they're not too heavy (although I love heavy metal), but they aren't what I call 'boy bands with guitars' or 'candy rock'. (Like Nickelback, Hinder, Saving Abel - not my style!) This is the real deal!!
The Smashing Pumpkins - Bullet with Butterfly Wings
A Classic. "Despite all my rage, I'm still just a rat in a cage". <<Love! The video is F*ckin rad too!
Pantera - Walk
Pantera is my top band of all time. I love them, they bring it hard and heavy. Their lyrics are legit!!
"Run your mouth when I'm not around
It's easy to achieve
You cry to weak friends that sympathize
Can you hear the violins playing your song?
Those same friends tell me your every word
Is there no standard anymore?
What it takes, who I am, where I've been
Belong
You can't be something you're not
Be yourself, by yourself
Stay away from me
A lesson learned in life
Known from the dawn of time"
Cage the Elephant - Shake Me Down
Good beat, I am really loving this band!
Seasons After - Through Tomorrow
"Another crossroad I have come upon today
I choose my own path I choose my own path
You call me ignorant I slam in your disdain
I was your lab rat, but I wont take that
Make up your mind
decide to walk again
we get to live again
we live again through tomorrow"
Rob Zombie - Never Gonna Stop
I'm really throwing some Zombie into my playlists these days. I'm going to see this crazy fool in May. He always puts on one heck of a performance. 'Never Gonna Stop' seems like a great thought right now.... :)
Alice in Chains - Man in the Box
Always a fave, gets me going. This is a good song for walking, I always pick up the pace when it comes on.
Tool - Sober
I love Tool. I've always loved Tool. They are fab, if you haven't seen one of their creepy, crazy, cool videos you need to check it out! This is one of my fave Tool songs, but I love all of them.
Sublime - What I Got
One of my all time favorite, feel good songs. I also have a lot of special memories with this song with my love, the long time keeper of my heart! Ahhhhhh, tears just well up when I am forced to remember that I'll never see him again. Sometimes, I pretend we are just separated for a year or so.... because that happened to us before and we made it through. Still not ready to talk about it, but he is the reason behind #6 and #7 on my 30x30 list. "I love you T and I think about you every single day. Your love and presence in my life is by far one of the greatest gifts I have ever received from this universe. I miss you, always."
Soundgarden - Spoonman
Chris Cornell's voice can take me to new places, I love him!
"All my friends are Indians
All my friends are Brown and Red
Spoonman"
I used to listen to this song over and over and think - 'Did they really just say that?' They sure did and it's ridiculously awesome! One for the Natives! I'm very proud to be Native American (I don't use the word Indian). We are a strong, solid people.
This is one of my favorite songs of all time.
Korn (ft. Skrillex) - Narcissistic Cannibals
There is no way you can't get up and DO WORK when this song comes on.
Janus - Eyesore
I love Janus. They bring it. I love their style, they're not too heavy (although I love heavy metal), but they aren't what I call 'boy bands with guitars' or 'candy rock'. (Like Nickelback, Hinder, Saving Abel - not my style!) This is the real deal!!
The Smashing Pumpkins - Bullet with Butterfly Wings
A Classic. "Despite all my rage, I'm still just a rat in a cage". <<Love! The video is F*ckin rad too!
Pantera - Walk
Pantera is my top band of all time. I love them, they bring it hard and heavy. Their lyrics are legit!!
"Run your mouth when I'm not around
It's easy to achieve
You cry to weak friends that sympathize
Can you hear the violins playing your song?
Those same friends tell me your every word
Is there no standard anymore?
What it takes, who I am, where I've been
Belong
You can't be something you're not
Be yourself, by yourself
Stay away from me
A lesson learned in life
Known from the dawn of time"
Cage the Elephant - Shake Me Down
Good beat, I am really loving this band!
Seasons After - Through Tomorrow
"Another crossroad I have come upon today
I choose my own path I choose my own path
You call me ignorant I slam in your disdain
I was your lab rat, but I wont take that
Make up your mind
decide to walk again
we get to live again
we live again through tomorrow"
Rob Zombie - Never Gonna Stop
I'm really throwing some Zombie into my playlists these days. I'm going to see this crazy fool in May. He always puts on one heck of a performance. 'Never Gonna Stop' seems like a great thought right now.... :)
Alice in Chains - Man in the Box
Always a fave, gets me going. This is a good song for walking, I always pick up the pace when it comes on.
Tool - Sober
I love Tool. I've always loved Tool. They are fab, if you haven't seen one of their creepy, crazy, cool videos you need to check it out! This is one of my fave Tool songs, but I love all of them.
Sublime - What I Got
One of my all time favorite, feel good songs. I also have a lot of special memories with this song with my love, the long time keeper of my heart! Ahhhhhh, tears just well up when I am forced to remember that I'll never see him again. Sometimes, I pretend we are just separated for a year or so.... because that happened to us before and we made it through. Still not ready to talk about it, but he is the reason behind #6 and #7 on my 30x30 list. "I love you T and I think about you every single day. Your love and presence in my life is by far one of the greatest gifts I have ever received from this universe. I miss you, always."
Soundgarden - Spoonman
Chris Cornell's voice can take me to new places, I love him!
"All my friends are Indians
All my friends are Brown and Red
Spoonman"
I used to listen to this song over and over and think - 'Did they really just say that?' They sure did and it's ridiculously awesome! One for the Natives! I'm very proud to be Native American (I don't use the word Indian). We are a strong, solid people.
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